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Wednesday, April 9

{ 9.4.08 on 'booooringgg sundaaaaaay D:' }

fxuk.
such a boringgg sunday siaaa.
and i swear, i was bad moood with mum.
"dear mum, i miss the old you". well, why she changed?
because of that fxuker lahh siaaa, ahhbohden?
and please eyh, i dont want my parents to divorce.
my little siblings need them. In fact, I do.
but why cant they just understand me? and us?
fxuk lahhh, i feel like running away frm home ah.
but i know it wont solve the problem.
go to family centre?
stepping my mum care like tht.
she thinks, she own this world.
hell ahh, plus this fxuking connection.
brrrr~
how i wish there's a place i could go with someone.
preferabably a quiet place ah.
go there, confem siaaa i shout my lungs out.
and i swear i gonna flood that place.
common ah, i kept all this to myself for too long.
and i've been suffering enough siaaa.
i want to put all this to an end and build that happy family again D:
why must be me to suffer siaaa?
mum, dont you pity me?
its hard to accept this ah, but mum shouldnt you be lucky?
having a child like me, who listens to you?
I go out also got limit siaaa, I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, ton also once in a blue moon saak.
mum, serious siaaa, if you werent my mum, i might have rembat you siak.
thats how evil i could be ah, but i dont have the heart siaaa.
see? you cant see that i love you so much, why sia you have to hurt me?
i feel like giving up with my life siaaa, but i want my future ah.
really, please change ah mum.
its either you change, or i will change.
deal or no deal?

; i'm fxuked up, mum.

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